Monday, January 1, 2018

First New Year's Day since 2000 without Caleb

Today starts the New Year.  A day for new beginnings, new hope, and clearer perspective. Lord, I know that with You, all things are possible. I know that our life on earth is just a vapor and that what matters is what we do that will last throughout eternity. 

Please don't let Caleb go into eternity without You as his LORD and Saviour. Don't give him over to a reprobate mind.  He is so lost right now, he can't discern the truth for himself.  Please don't let him kill himself or be killed before he can figure out how much he needs a Saviour. Please bring him home, if it could be Your will.

Wednesday, December 27, 2017

First Christmas without Caleb

Today is December 27, 2017. It has now been 19 days since I've seen my son.  He still thinks he's doing fine.  I talk to him on the phone and text him, but nothing I say gets through to him.  He went from living in our home, going to school, having a vehicle and starting a new job to living with complete strangers, dropping out of school, wrecking his truck and having no job. Yep. He's doing great.

Lord, why can't he see the truth of his situation. Please let him either find his feet or figure out he needs to repent and come back home.  Please let him see that we are not the ones who ruined his life by not sending him to public school. He is ruining his life by turning his back on everything we've done for him and taught him.

Lord, Please don't let Jamie and Isaac go down this same path.  Please give them a heart for you.  I know I have set terrible examples for all 3 of my children in the past, but I am asking you right now to help them remember what I've taught them about You and the love You have for them and that You have plans for them. Please let them choose You over the world and over their selfish desires. I pray that they won't remember the bad examples, but all the love I have tried to pour out over them and the godly advice I've poured into them, the Scriptures we've memorized over the years and the fact that You love them and desire to have a relationship to them.

Thursday, December 14, 2017

Gone without a Goodbye

Today it has been a week since my youngest son went to work and after getting in trouble for not coming home when he was supposed to, just decided to stay gone.  He left without saying goodbye. I thought things were looking up and that he was headed in the right direction.  I was wrong.

Dear LORD,
I love you. And even though I feel like a failure I know You still love me. I know Satan would have me believe that all is lost, but as long as there is breath in my son's body, there is hope.  I am placing my trust in You, LORD, and You alone. You alone are capable of bringing triumph out of tribulation, of causing calm out of the chaos. You and You only can be with Caleb everywhere he goes.  Please continue to speak truth to him. Please continue to place a hedge of protection around him and when he starts down the road to temptation place stumbling blocks in his path. Cause him to hear Your lovingkindness in the morning, and to put his trust in You. Cause him to know the way wherein he should walk and to lift his soul up to You...) Psalm 143:8

LORD, I pray that Caleb will realize his need for You and that he will remember Your truths that I have taught him throughout his life.  Please remind him of everything I have taught him and every time he chooses to do something he knows is wrong, fill him with remorse and the sorrow that leads to repentance. Please don't let him be given over to a reprobate mind.  Please guard his heart, don't let the bad influences he is surrounding himself with drown out the voice of Your Holy Spirit.

I also want to pray for the woman he is staying with.  I know at one time she acknowledged You as Savior, whether it was heartfelt or pretend, I can't judge. Please cause her to seek Your face and cause her to realize her need for You as LORD of her life. I pray that somehow You will restore Caleb to this family.  But more importantly that he will realize his need for a Savior and that he will let You be LORD of his life.

Friday, February 5, 2016

In our homeschool group, the Mom's are doing a Bible study using Lisa Terkeurst's book,

I for one especially need it, because I feel this way on a daily basis. 
My prayer for our group:
Help us to have the presence of mind in these "unglued" moments to remember that You are "for" us as Sandi reminded us Thursday, and that we can act, not on the 'out of control feelings' we are having, but with the abundant grace that you give us daily. Please help us remember that the struggles we face are with the evil one, not our children, not our husbands, or anyone else. You tell us in Your Word that in this world we will have struggles, but You also remind us that You have overcome the world. 

So when the darling children aren't being so darling and the laundry is piling up and supper needs to be started and we're still trying to get some schooling in and we haven't even gotten dressed yet..... speak peace to our souls, remind us that we belong to the One True and Living God and nothing can separate us from Your love.  Help us remember that You have written us on the palms of Your hands and even though we may feel overwhelmed by the earthly struggles, that that is all they are:  earthly struggles, they don't affect Your feelings for us, they don't keep us from Your presence, they can't steal our joy if we don't let them.

Thank You for being Who You say You are and thank You that Your mercies are new every morning. Thank You for being "for" me and helping me keep my eyes on eternity and how my actions can either lead my children closer to You or further away from You. Help each of us show Your love, Your mercy, and Your longsuffering today as we walk through this day and all the days leading to eternity.

In the name of Your Strong and Mighty Son, Jesus, I ask and pray these things.  Amen

Monday, February 1, 2016

We got insurance and tags for Isaac's truck today.  Still staggering from the cost, but glad to be able to do this for him.  He's going to pay part of the cost of insurance, so that makes it a little easier on us.

Sunday, January 31, 2016

We  finally found a truck for Isaac. A '99 Toyota. It's white with an extended cab. We paid for it and he's going to pay us back for part of it. Pictures to follow.

Monday, December 14, 2015

Decided to try to write something today.......

Isaac started his first job today. He's working at the Love's Truck Stop in Lee.  He'll be training all week. He's excited and I'm excited and apprehensive.  It's just one step closer to adulthood.  What happened to my little curly haired Monchichi?

Saturday, August 15, 2015

Life update

It is August 15, 2015 and I haven't added any posts in about 2 years. So here's a catch up.

In August of 2013, James's Aunt Frances had to go into a nursing home, and since she had no children, she asked James and I (insert me), to take care of her, her house, banking, bill paying, etc.

So in between homeschooling and taking caring of Aunt Fran, life rocked on until January. Aunt Fran got sick and went to the hospital for about a week before passing away January 26, 2014.

The next 2 or 3 months of our time was divided between homeschooling, cleaning her house and getting rid of her furniture, at least the pieces we couldn't find room for or didn't want.
It was on the chilly side this morning so I decided to run the heater to knock off the chill in the house. However, when I turned it on, the noise that came from it was definitely NOT music to my ears.  I immediately turned it back off.

This is going to be a late night for James.  He has to work until 12:00 p.m. tonight

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Our very hot trip to the zoo! Thank the Lord for ice, water, and air-conditioning.

Our beautiful yard

Monday, May 20, 2013

Winding up the day, waiting for my youngest son to finish his shower so we can read the Bible and go to bed.  James is already asleep.  He's exhausted.  After working all day, he came home an cut up an enormous limb that fell in our front yard last night.  Him and the boys loaded up the limbs and took them to the burn pile.

Our baby chicks finally hatched Sunday, all 6 of them and last night we lost one to some kind of predator.  So sad.  He was black and all the rest are yellow.

Caleb killed a snake by the chicken pen this afternoon.  The sixth one since last Monday that we have found in our yard.  We hate to kill them, but they are eating our eggs. The turkeys have a new pen and the hen is sitting on the eggs we put in there.  The goose is on her nest, if all goes well, we will have baby geese and baby turkeys next month.

Our garden is doing well.  We have red, white, and blue potatoes, tomatoes, peanuts, several kinds of  peppers, eggplants, watermelon, and canteloupes.  We just pulled up most of the onions.

We need rain, or the peanuts aren't going to make.

Thursday, January 31, 2013

Our 2013 Homeschool Zoo Field Trip

     Not a zoo critter. :)

Saturday, October 6, 2012

Homeschool Thought/Prayer?

Dear Lord,
I know what causes insanity: doing the same thing over and over and expecting new results.  Please help me change my approach to schooling my youngest son.  The old method has not and is not working.  The reason I keep doing it is because the way I am doing it has "markers", or guidelines I guess you could say, to tell me when I'm "done".  If I don't do it like this I'm afraid I won't do anything at all and I reason that surely he's learning something if we muddle through this curriculum.  He hates school, he hates learning, he hates everything about it. Sometimes I think he even hates me. 

Lord, please help me. Help me help Caleb not hate school and learning. I know that everything doesn't have to be "fun" and entertaining, but does everything have to be accomplished with a struggle and complaining and argument? Please help me reach this child You have given me. "Cause me to know the way wherein I should walk for I lift up my soul unto You." (Ps. 143:8b)

Lord you made Caleb and placed him in our family. You knew, when you did that, exactly what I would be facing right now. When it is time for our school day to start, I am already so discouraged and overwhelmed, that even I don't want to do anything.  I've never felt this way this early in the school year. Show me a better way. "Make me to walk in the path of thy commandments for therein do I delight." (Psalm 119:35)  Lord you have promised in Your Word that I will find you when I seek You with my whole heart and I am doing so now. Please give me wisdom and insight in regards to how to help Caleb.  I know that before I can move forward I have to reach this child's heart. I can't do it in my own strength. Help me, I pray.  You alone know what needs to be done.  Please guide me. I am seeking and asking and knocking, in the name of Your Precious Son, Jesus.

Saturday, January 14, 2012

Today James emptied the water heater because he thought it wasn't heating properly.  He was not surprised to find it full of scale.  He is going to buy a new heating element.

Tuesday, November 15, 2011


Today I am thankful that James did not get hurt any worse than he did last night at work.  He had to work late and when he finally made it home his left hand was covered in a bandage.  His first words to me were, "Don't freak out, I just cut an artery in the back of my hand."  Somehow the words "don't freak out" and "cut artery" don't go in the same sentence.  He's fine but he did have to have 3 or 4 stitches.  He cut his hand on copper pipe.

Monday, November 14, 2011

Dinner for the Samaritan's Purse workers

Today our church provided lunch for the workers of Samaritan's Purse.  We provided Spaghetti (provided by Wanda, Joyce, Me, and Charlotte), Salad (provided by Gene and Kay, Caroline and Dave and Tammy), garlic bread (provided by Kathy F.), a delicious B-B-Q chicken, potato salad and baked beans (provided by Ida and Bill), lemon lush (Bonnie), Apple Crumb Cake (Charlotte), Brownies (Betty),
Pumpkin Roll (Me), Pound Cake (Lavon), and Chocolate Chip cookies (Georgette).

This is my note to myself for next year.

Friday, November 11, 2011

Another great catch

The temperature this morning was in the 30s.  I don't want to be in a boat in this cold, but the cold doesn't keep James off the water.

Saturday, November 5, 2011

Great day fishing

James and Isaac went fishing today and caught this great catch!

Monday, September 19, 2011

Can't Think of a Title - How About, "Behold all things will become new."

My heart doesn't feel like singing today, but I know that God inhabits the praises of His people, so I will sing, if not out loud at least in my mind.

The "fall" weather is both exhilerating and depressing.  The breeze feels good on my face.  Today Caleb and I sat on the back deck while he read his book to me.  Did I mention that he hates to read, but read he did and we got a treat.  As we sat there, hovering over his book, a humming bird lit on the feeder behind us.  Caleb was so excited and so was I. Caleb stopped reading for a moment and we watched the tiny bird until he flew away.

But back to the weather, it is exhilerating because the heat isn't present, but depressing for lots of reasons, one of them being that everything will start to look dead and barren.  The way my life looked 3 years ago at this time of the year. It's easy to believe that God has abandoned us when everything looks this way, but I know better. Out of what was almost the end of my marriage, came a loving, vibrant relationship, that is better than I could have dreamed or wished for. A relationship that is only possible because of our relationship with our loving Creator. Out of the ashes, so to speak, our marriage has risen stronger than ever. 

Isaiah 43:2-3a says:
2 When thou passest through the waters, I will be with thee; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow thee; when thou walkest through the fire, thou shalt not be burned, neither shall the flame kindle upon thee.
3 For I am the LORD thy God, the Holy One of Israel, thy Savior;

I can tell you from experience, that this is true.  God will never leave you nor forsake you.  He is just a prayer away.